Well yea this girl named Jessica Desroches keeps ending me hate mail all because she doesn't believe that i could have had Amnesia.....she's never herd of it and apparently there is no such thing....what a dumb bitch...I told her that i had Dissociative Amnesia but did she listen??? nope she's all My mom is a doctor so i think i would know about this i asked her if her mom was a neurosurgeon or studied neurology but that dumb bitch knows her mom doesn't what the fuck is her problem??? dude i have it for a reason....well i think so i mean i remember the details it's the stuff around it that i barely remember....like my birth days....friends.....relationships....i don't know but hey all i know is that this is real and i don't give a fuck who doesn't believe me i know it's real......OK so back to my life
Ryan likes me still i guess i mean he said that Morgan lied about him kissing her, He never went back out with his girlfriend and he NEVER said that what they had was real love............ SO yea i don't hate him anymore............OK then there's Brandon extremely cute plus he has a dirt bike...can you say w00t t00t, yea well a girl keeps her options open when it comes to guys you can never be to sure about those shady characters.......well anyways guess what....
John Williams...my one true love the one guy who I've always had a crush on well i remember what he looks like, sounds like, and even remember our conversations....I'm going to try and find him on myspace, mindviz any other place i can then maybe he'll be single and i can have him!!!!!!!!!!!! OK whats next oh yea HA! Chris couldn't keep his girlfriend but he got a new one as soon as that one left....what the fuck!?!?!?!?!?!?
how come i remain single.....i know i know it's because i choose not to be a tramp and degrade myself to be admired by guys and if they don't like me for me then fuck 'em cuz I'm one of a kind........well it doesn't matter.....i wrote a really awesome poem that I'd like to share

Paper cut Skin(poem)
I've killed all the love inside
I try to forget the pain
I'm lost in your eyes
I'm trapped in your arms
I'm hypnotized by your voice
I wait for you to visit me at my hospital bed
I try not to show how i feel but i wear my heart on my sleeve
Tears fall from darkened eyes
The bruises heal but the scars remain
Will you ever leave me alone?
Will i ever heal?
Forever.....is a long time to be in love.....
Eternity is a long time to be stuck loving you.......

yea see i can't help being Emo when it comes to poems i love tragedy, doomed loves, failed relationships....I don't mean i like these things to happen to me but i love to write about it, read it and create it lol......well I've decided that this is my one and only true blog from now on....that's not a guarantee but hey it feels good saying it.....