Thoughts

well today I found myself dreaming of him, yea I know it's wrong but I can't help it he's there in my mind and he won't leave me alone......well enough about my obsession with a guy i'll never have lets go on to something more nerve racking; I'm jelous of Chris I mean damn it how can he get a date and I can't he has a girlfriend and I don't I mean what the fuck!?!?!??!?! I'm good looking, have personality, single, looking for love and not to mention I'm into kinky things what guy wouldn't want me????? I mean honestly!!!!!!!! well maybe the fact that I want more than sex turns guys off.....well I'm sorry I'm not a whore, slut or anyother things guys love to screw over......why me I'm never single I always have a guy leeching onto me but now the moment I wan something real they all run and head for the hills!!!!!!!