I'm my own worst enemy

Well today I've made a decision that I won't ask Brandon to come see me......he has work and school and I'm tired of him passing out after sex.....I mean honestly where is the after sex cuddling!!!!!!!! dude I'm just gonna save it for his days off from work and school; yea I won't get as much sex but I will have cuddle time .......Yea last night it was 11pm and i text him telling him to sneak over and he ended up falling asleep......I was pissed at first but then I was like dude I'm such a total bitch!!!!!!! what the hell am that self centered he needs sleep so i left him a message telling him not to come over on days he has school and work that way we'll have lots of random sex and he won't pass out....lol yea it's insane...holy fuck am I becoming the bitchy self centered girls that guys complain to me about???? maybe......it's insane though......well you know what i am making a point NOT to be like that and that's final!!!!!!!!